As I you probably know I am graduating in 4 months. I can't even believe I am writing that. It's scary. Like I'm-about-to-pee-in-my-pants scary. I hated law school, but I went for it you know. I just didn't give up to then throw myself into some random degree just because I didn't want to do law anymore. I made a decision in my last year at school, the decision to move to England, to go to University and study Law. So that's what I did for the past 3 years. I regret nothing. It has been such a journey and enriching experience. I have grown up so much from it, and I've become the person I am today. Ok at times I hated myself for doing this, and going through the amount of work for all this time, because I knew from the end of my first term, in my first year, that Law just wasn't my thing, but I was strong and did my best.
Here I am today, about to pass my exams (in may) and finally graduate with a Law degree. I have been thinking about what comes next for months now, and for all this time I had no idea what I wanted to do, and no clue where I was going, but I think I have finally found something I am passionate about, something that inspires me and something that I can see myself doing as a career.
That thing being Interior Design. You might wonder, how can she jump from Law to Interior Design? Well the appropriate question I think would be why did she do Law in the first place?
Because you would know that I am creative and artistic not strict and boring (not that all lawyers are... but you know you get the idea). Since last summer that idea of becoming an interior designer has been at the back of my mind, I kept it quiet, because you know if I did say it out loud, it would make it real. And most of all I didn't want to disapoint my parents by abandoning Law. But that idea was still at the back of my mind after Christmas, so I decided to tell my mum about it, and obviously she didn't object and was happy that I found something that I liked. I wasn't so sure about how my dad would react, because he was always the one encouraging me to continue Law after University, to try it out and see for myself. I know he'll support me whatever I decide to do, but I felt a little bit guilty for not using my law degree as such after all this money he had spent on it. I still haven't had a proper conversation with him about it, but I keep mentioning it and he doesn't seem to object. Although I know it isn't a matter of if they object or not because I am an adult and I can make my own decisions, but it is more a matter of not wanting to disapoint them, them and the rest of my family.
I am happy with my decision. My plan isn't very clear yet, because I don't want to start in september, as it is a little too early after graduation and most application deadlines were in January. I am looking for an Interior Design course in London, one that could possibly start next January. But I can only find ones that start in september for now. So I'll keep on looking, and I am going to open days in march to visit the schools.
It's a mix of emotions at the moment, very excited and impatient to start, but a little petrified and also frustrated with all this research. I just wish that one perfect school, that one perfect course could just jump at me. It would be a lot easier:
Sorry this is like an essay. But I just had to let it all out. I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!